Last Night I had a dream, more of a nightmare really, of an expensive house repair. I dreamt that I went into the basement and there was a large crack in the floor that had water bubbling up through it. In my dream all I could think about was the cost of the repair. I was anxiously thumbing through the phonebook looking up “wet Basements” and not finding anything. I kept thinking, “how am I going to pay for this? I am going to have to sell the house next year and rent, because I can’t afford to maintain it.”
Luckily, I woke up and no bubbling fountain of water is coming through my basement floor. I do know the feeling of that anxious, “oh my god, how am I going to pay for this? Why do I keep getting into more debt?” in the waking world as well. I am starting to get that feeling with my car.
So far, I’ve always managed to “find the money”. Although, it usually involves an endless rotation of credit cards and loans. I need to sit down and think outside the box for a while and develop new ways to achieve my goals. Its funny, a friend once told me I was “really good at thinking outside the box, but I sometimes miss what is in the box”.
Maybe it is the box I am missing!