About ten years ago I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety and mild Agoraphobia. Ever since then I have been in and out of therapy dealing with the problems and underlying causes.
I have come a long way in my life. I can do so many more things that I couldn’t do. Such as order pizza on the phone, go to a new restaurant, etc. Every so often I find a “problem”, such as my fear of using a drive-through car wash because I have never done it before and “don’t know how it works”.
I posted about the tree we received as a gift and the turmoil it caused me. Well, we may receive another gift that is now causing me anxiety. I think I may have discovered a new “problem”. It explains my avoidance of gift giving holidays and celebrations. Sometimes I am OK at gift receiving. I really think it depends on whether the gift is a small token or something large. Gift cards seem to be OK for me.
The wedding is bringing these issues to light. Logically, I should be ecstatic to receive gifts (free things!), but anxiety isn’t logical. So, next week I will head back to my therapist to explore my gift problem.
At least she is free……covered by insurance any way.